Growing up

Growing up, moving on, however you want to put it, I feel like I'm getting old.

Today I went to a job interview and asked for more than £5.50 an hour. It is a very interesting concept, as I have previously never done so. It also means that I have to face my Peter Pan fear and grow up. Yes, that's right, go out into the big wide world and out from under the protective wing of education.

It should be a moment for joy, happiness etc, as I have handed in my dissertation, and look set to finish my course with a low 2:1 or high 2:2. Yet, I cannot help but think of the fond memories I have from Bournemouth, the skills I have learned from the wonderful people I have met, or the friends I have made and look to take with me into the next chapter of the book of my life.

Unfortunately, I don't want to grow up. As previously mentioned (i'm writing in dissertation style now, this is odd) I have the classic "never-grow-up" fear, as made famous by Peter Pan. I still listen to any music from Christmas songs in may to tv themes, to 80s hits and 90s rock. My life is not defined by music, as many of my friends find themselves. Instead, it provides a soundtrack to the various moods I often find myself in, so I speak freely when I say my taste in music is a sign I have not grown up.

I still cannot cook a decent meal for myself, struggle with the concept of ironing and dislike washing up. Likewise, I frequently find myself with the garment I want to wear still being in the dirty laundry pile. This encapsulates the life of Jamie Fretwell.

Fortunately, as I keep telling myself, my education has made me much better organised, and I can now handle more responsibilities than I could have possibly dealt with 3 years ago. I hold down 2 jobs, still study full time, have a reasonable well maintained relationship, and haven't starved or been found in a ditch yet - although I believe the last two are connected somewhat).

I have plans for the future, savings and still get to play on my playstation and mess around with my car and tomtom. All in all i've not done too badly. The fact that I have managed to land an interview for my dream job underlines my personal development really. I've come on quite the journey, and to anyone who doubted me or helped me through, thank you. Without your help, guidance and support I wouldn't be half the person I am now.

Without bragging too much, or sounding egotistical, I'm quite happy with my life. Lets just hope that continues.